no need to numb me.
no need to numb me?
nurtured my experience, my connection to the divine
tho i'm naturally prone to transcending the earthly realms
do i need help? pretending i'm in control, takin on Michael's mental
down to earth he was my safety he was my war.
now what's good? i have a plan. i tend to forget it,
sticky notes all over my flat
i'm bad at staying in touch with reality.
my mind's in a motion world, molding my notes molding my faults
am i up to the task to keep myself grounded and take care of my crazy ass?
all i woulda given you, i give to me
So what's the concept of this anyway? You write whatever comes to your mind and if you put it public y'all just chitchat publicly?
Now I have a list of what I got to do to be the better me. It's funny this concept of always aiming for something different. Of looking elsewhere than where you are now. We've been places, we've done a lot already. But our generations are cursed with a constant feeling of not being enough. Core wound, I call the doctor: Hey Doc', what can I do? Tell me how to live 'cause I don't know. We live by imitation. Who is this "Imitation Game" song from again? Oh no, it's also a movie, right? My Mercury is in Pisces, sorry from jumping from one subject to the other, my brain can't sit still - and I low-key just be blurring it so only the real ones can stick. Got trust issues. But hey I'm taking risks, I'm writing for the whole world to see.
I have a global dilemma going on: which language should I write in? I have been feeling disconnected to french lately and been wanting to reconnect to my heart, to who I grew up to be. But there's something I don't feel at peace with with french. I criticize myself too much. My over-intellectualizing Aquarius dad's voice is on my left shoulder, tryna get me to be critical and "woke". I am woke, Dad. Way more than so many people, or maybe not enough? Here we go again. Shit.
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