15/02/22
Feeling a little agitated tonight. A lot is going on, in my head, in my chest, in my stomach. It's all a screaming mess but in a silent scream. More like an ominous feeling but not really. More like a bother. It's little troubles that you know you can solve one at a time, but wonder if there aren't bigger ones hidden under. Mental health issues that you pushed aside for too long that need a lot of work. School, and the problem of how to learn more efficiently. A fear of the future and failure. Creating bonds that will last a lifetime with people that you cherish. Even findinng these people is a hard task. Learning to love yourself the right way. Working on becoming a better person. Trying not to crack under pressure. Procrastinating. Searching for motivation. Wondering if you're not more scared of success than you are of failure. Finding the courage. Keeping your head up. Trying harder. Trying to remind yourself of how strong you are and how much you can accomplish. Being scared because you're kinda walking straight ahead with your eyes closed. Having a blurry vision of the future. Still... Waking up every morning because, you know there is something beautiful waiting for you if you keeping showing up for yourself. Trying. Just because. You want to. You want to become someone you can be proud of for no one but yourself. Being scared but, knowing. You'll be okay.
Créé le 15/02/22 à 00:43 par
Skykkid