I don't really know how I feel. I find myself crying without any reason because everything is falling down and I don't think I'm prepared for all of this. I don't know. Maybe I have been strong for too long. Maybe I just feel alone. Because I don't know how to tell someone I'm not okay. I don't even know who to talk to. It feels like I have no one because I'm not able to come to my friends and say "hey I don't feel good, I'm crying can you call me?" So I just stand here. Feeling empty. Waiting for someone to take a look at me and tell me "it's okay, you don't have to be strong, I'm here". I'm just waiting for that someone..